One thing that many people suffer with, yet we hardly ever talk about it…Anxiety.
If you don’t have it, then its really hard to understand.
Its like a battle against your inner self, it could be something like going out for dinner with someone, meeting new people and over caring and worrying. When someone who doesn’t have it, experiences you in this manor they question you.. ‘why do you worry so much? why do you care so much?’ ‘Just come out, it will be a laugh’. What they don’t understand is, it isn’t a choice. You physically and emotionally can’t help yourself, your own mind puts all these questions, emotions and barriers in the way. Anxiety is and can be a list of many things:
- Feelings of panic, fear, and uneasiness
- Problems sleeping
- Cold or sweaty, hands and feet
- Shortness of breath
- Not being able to be still and calm
Some days you may feel like the whole world is against you. You judge yourself so much that you convince yourself no one likes you or wants to be around you. You don’t want to go out because you think people will just judge you. Your too scared to try new experiences because of what ‘could happen’. Going on holidays can be a huge thing, new places, new people. I’m going on holiday soon with my friend and although we have been friends for so long and I cant wait to go. Deep down I am already really anxious. I wont be doing my day to day routine being around people I know. The flight is worrying me the most, as its 11 hours, I haven’t ever been on a flight that long before. Even though I have flown a few times, I just feel that extra worry because I will be away from my family, not with my boyfriend. It will be okay, I just keep telling myself that.
You have this life that is so happy, yet your brain will create this one thing that makes you feel so unhappy. Your world then feels as though its crashing down because your feeling unhappy and it frustrates the people around you because they feel as though you are pushing them away, but you cant really explain what’s wrong when they ask you as you don’t even know yourself… give yourself time and you will be surprised.
we, can do this. No matter what or how hard it gets we can do it.
all my love